my painting

tonight, im painting the sky. dried tears, little diamonds in the night.
other people will look up to it but they will never know it's mine.
because i am not just one but i am many. stars glow because they are hope.
lovers part. some came close. most dream of the good times they never knew.

tonight, i will be thinking in silence. my time has yet to come until then..
ill be painting the sky every night. the feeling of solitude slowly deserting.
and if i seem to tire from my brushes and paint, i would dance underneath the heavens.
i will be dancing with the world in a concert of broken hearts and hopeful souls.

i know that it's out there.

ive been searching for that one soul to ignite my sinister life.everywhere i look is a mass of broken personas tormented because of love.i wanna escape this drowning sensation of hopelessness.escape this mob of endless waiting, of endless hoping. i wanna feel alive again. feel that tingling sensation of magic inside me.feel gradually happy everyday because this one soul is there to bore life with me.ive been wishing on rainbows far too long. i have lost track of time.here i am just suddenly awake with nothing but empty notes on hand.all i ever wanted is to find my back into you. you, who completes me.whoever you are. i know you are out there.and someday, i will find you. or maybe you will find me.


theres just got to be one lost soul out there for me.

the dance.

you came. we met. you left.

it's ironic to fall in love in a second. i have always been a firm believer of love at first sight. but for some reason, it failed me this time. and i have to admit. this time it hit me big. i cant vaguely explain what happened. it's more like a one whole day fairytale. i fell in love. i met the wrong prince.

i just had to write these annotations about you.

the firmament had it's usual shade of gray. the wind playing in the vast.
it was a cold forlorn night. your eyes bore that of an endless enigma.
your guise drew me like a magnet. i had not see the affectation of your charm.

i skipped and hummed with the sensation. felt like a modern day fairytale.
and just like any mythical story, it offered a taste of love and excitement.
like an innocent lass, i danced with you. i held your hand. i fell in love.
the clock strucked 12, you had to go. i turned to see the direction where, you were gone.

the vastness around me became intoxicating. i heard too many cries.
i saw too many faces. masked, monstrous. the dance ended. the ballroom was left empty.
my gown shattered to pieces. my face blemish with tears. my heart left cold.
the wind sang a sad song. no more orchestra playing the music. fairytale ended.

my heart broken into pieces.

being silly.

i sit under a big oak tree and i watch the birds fly across the sky.
the green grass never felt so consoling. the summer breeze loving.
i felt my heart in between my fingers. and i felt it beat rapidly.
i smiled like that of a silly child and then father sun said.
"my child you are in love."