NUTS

STOP! absolutely stop thinking about him. your nuts. (iknow)

i wanna surrender to you this feelings of affection.
im not going to ask you not hurt me coz that wouldnt be pragmatic.
i just want you to know, that what i want from you is love. and i want all of it.
i wish i know you but i dont. keep your sentiments to yourself. yep, you've fooled this little girl.
i just hope, your not like the many. a line so often said by a dozen of women in love.
i feel like a tiny mouse talking to a big piece of cheese. hungry. haha. i am NUTS.

and if ever you feel like disappearing, tell me. im not like every other 19 year old.
i hate crying over spilled milk. and then i would just like to think of you as a piece of reminiscence that i like to think about everyday. people come and go. i wish your here to stay though. bottomline? i fell in love with you. i wish this didnt have to happened. but because it did. im bound to it. not for responsibility but for the sensation of it. toothy grin. gleaming eyes. silly dreams.

i love to savor love and it's bitterness. it just feel oh-soo-good!
pathetic. dillusional. childlish. call it whatever. for me? it's bliss. :)